. my 'real' life .

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Greater the hope, the bigger the disappointment,
time is running out,
some decisions made,
it may never be the same again.

account for our own actions

temptations, slipping away...

strummed at 10:53 pm

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

tired.

taken the 1st step,
hope i can last to see the process end.

strummed at 10:06 pm

my utopia is lost, but you brought my life to a whole new meaning.

Maybe i really dunno what i really want in life,
Maybe you are right about me living for others.
Is this how life should be like?
Can i pull together with my weaker mind to help you get over it?
I guess there are many things in life i am not right about,
because time after time you prove me wrong,
be it in the good way or the bad way.
i accept you and am willing to guide u,
this is my promise to you.
i am lost and confused too.
please grant me strength.

am i not even worth for you to fight for?

strummed at 10:47 am

Sunday, March 15, 2009

do u think when some 1 say they like you, they will forget abt it the nxt day? feelings don't fade when you are there always.

there are only some things people do only for love,
they care about what you eat, drink and when you sleep,
they look out for you even when they are tired,
they suprise you with things you like,
they protect you,
they wanna drag time spend with you,
they advise you,
they listen to your advises,
only because they love you then they do such stuff for you.

strummed at 4:49 pm

u seem to trust everyone but me,
maybe because i always put facts bluntly across.
the fear of losing you is greater everyday,
yet you can't see the actions of mine to secure you,
i guess the way i put across is wrong but sometimes to draw a line is the right thing to do,
best friends don't think about whether you wanna eat this, do that day in day out,
only peoply who love you would.
hope 1 day you will see it.

for some 1 who say don't believe in paltonic relationship tells you best friends you believe,
for me a guy who loves you and close to NEVER lie to you about stuff you turn a deaf ear,
what am i suppose to do.
are you the lighthouse of my life?

strummed at 4:22 pm

if you someone do matter to you, you have to show it.
of they would just fade away.
it applies to everyone...
people don't stay for the sake of just being there.
TRUST me.

strummed at 12:06 pm

Friday, March 13, 2009

once u told me this, friends company is different and my company is different
but what u showed me is, friends company can replaced me mine
but mine can't replaced theirs.
all you do is denied when i asked but nothing you did recently showed other wise.

this past months,
you only showed when you needed me to help you stuffed then you would find me,
you don't talk the same to me anymore,
am i not fun anymore? or somehow my placed in your heart have disappeared?
your ACTIONS show that you didn't want me there in your life at ALL.
have you noticed these changes in you?
do you know why? if you do please tell me.

all you say is that you are not enough for me.
i don't really care if you weren't good enough for me, but TELL ME IF I AM EVEN ENOUGH FOR YOU TO LOVE ME BACK.

strummed at 8:47 pm

should i even bother.
do we want me to be bother? give me my ans.

i am what you really want?
because i always take ur word seriously.
have you take my words seriously?
or you took me for granted?

strummed at 6:23 pm

its black friday again. friday 13th.
does it mean feb and march is cursed?

u drifted...
isn't my comforting arms comparable to comfort?
is there a change of hearts?

strummed at 11:36 am

have you wondered why the earth spins the way it does?
isn't emotions a magical thing?
it does make u twirl in this mysterious way.
because of what happened arnd me i wanna prevent it yet you don't see it,
i can't bear to lose you,
because the lost is too great and i wanna hear that and know it from you that u agree.

i really do wanna know are you ready for me.

strummed at 3:59 am

Thursday, March 12, 2009

You can go on blaming everyone else,but until the day you take responsiblilty for yourself, then everything is gonna be alright.

3 days of drinks ain't enough to drown the sorrow.
i ain't even giving up.
i just want you to be sure about it too.

thanks for the drink.

strummed at 4:37 pm

sleepless nights...

all i wanted was you to feel like u are everything to me.

TRUST me

strummed at 12:37 am

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

as i sat at the same bus-stop we 1st met...
i rmb times when we sat at the garden until 4.30 am,
where did she go?
when are those times when you smiled caused you wanted me and i was there for you?
Never once i regret scarficing time and myself for you cause you matter more than anything in the world and i do it with pleasure.
I ENJOYED IT.
i didn't know why i don't matter, you say you do but none of your actions show.
where was the one who would listen and knows because i wanna protect her cos i love her.

do u wanna find her back?

strummed at 10:28 pm

know what you really want.
if i do matter,
why my words don't mean a thing?
you made me feel like what i say and feel don't matter.

strummed at 12:49 pm

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

why would some 1 love u harm u?
when ever i do praise you, u will just think i say for the sake of saying it, but its not true.
if u take my guidance as an insult. i really failed.
i failed in conveying my love. i failed. i really failed.

you taught me once how to love. i thank you.

strummed at 8:30 pm

do u really think i tell u to do and not do would really harm u?
everytime i say,
you will just take me questioning trust instead of thinking why i do so?
you say were never right, if so why won't you just listen?
its not about fault when it comes to love,
is my love not enough to show i will protect you and for you to listen to me?
IN THE WORLD, I WILL NOT EVEN BE THE LAST PERSON TO HURT YOU, BECAUSE I WILL NEVER HURT YOU.

strummed at 8:17 pm

those who ask get help,
those who wait get nothing,
consequences after actions,
why not prevent,
things right and wrong,
we can't do it all because we like it,
why wait for reality to face you and tell you screwed up?
we think of others because we want to,
once lost many things don't return
never they do.
silence is never good,
don't blame but reflect,
is it others or it lies within.
with fear to fit in, why question conventions?
KEEP IT REAL

am i just a friend or more?
your actions show.

have you even thankful that i was different?
is the world revolving round yourself or US?
Have you thought why you are being questioned time after time?
Have you thought why i hate seeing you sad?
Have you thought why i bother to reach out to you and wait?
Have you thought that you have changed?
Or you just blame people that you are ok and people are obstructing you?
Is it hard to keep and treasure those around you even they are not physically there?
whats unfair? is it hard to love with your heart?
why even ask when u have done something that you want and think its ok?

strummed at 3:25 pm

not everything is about you,
where did the change come from?
makes me wonder about stuff,
do u think i would question when everything is ok?
if you say you are independent i wouldn't have question,
but why now you no longer depend on me?
stop blaming me and feel affected,
do things that your heart tells you.
this is nothing to balance when u feel like doing it.
you tell me don't bother to do stuff,
don't make it seem my fault and live in self pity,
think about things logically and account for your actions.
Seriously.

strummed at 11:43 am

Monday, March 09, 2009

there are many things that i would like to say to you but i dunno how,
it may seem like a nag, but i do have my reasons for doing so.
my duty to protect, care and teach.
there are things i overlooked into, but cos i can see to protect.
u matter and i care.
hope 1 day u see what i mean.
maybe i was too nice but times have chaneg
and i hope i have str to do so until i last.

strummed at 8:52 pm

Saturday, March 07, 2009

i was wrong

yes i m tired

needing u.

strummed at 2:20 am